Choosing to Battle

 

I battle daily.

Old thoughts, patterns, habits, voices, behaviors, memories. So much from certain parts of my past come over me like waves. But I have CHOICES!! Will I turn to others, to God, to His Word? Will I renew my mind? Take my thoughts captive? Dig deep into my memories and hold them up to Scripture? OR DO I GIVE INTO IT ALL? Be consumed and sink into despair?

Freedom in Christ or bondage?

It is hard work!! It is exhausting!! It takes courage!! I have to embrace change!! So I can look more like Christ and help others embrace change too!! Will I?? I don't always choose wisely. I stay in bed and long to go home. I push my dearest loves away. (and then God's kindness leads me to humble myself and repent) I long to have a different past. Sometimes I just want a mom. A mom like so many of you had. One that loved you and taught you and sought your heart.

But God......is mine. And I am His.

I don't know what you might be battling today but there are choices to be made. And there is grace.

We all have choices.

Follow God or follow ourselves. Follow Him or follow the world. Believe Truth or believe lies. One way leads to life and one way leads to death.

I will be doing the hard work with God's help today. Why?

For greater intimacy with God. To look more like Jesus. For more healing of past pain and trauma in my life. For the women I have yet to meet that truly need and want to change. To comfort others with the comfort I have received from God. To be a more loving and effective Biblical counselor.