Monday, June 20, 2022



Happy Belated Fathers Day to my Patrick!!
It is a joy and a blessing to watch you be the father that I always wanted. THANK YOU for always pointing our children to God.
You are loved!!

Sunday, April 17, 2022

Tuesday, March 22, 2022

Spring Break 2022

On Friday March 18th our flight home for FL was cancelled as we were heading to the airport. What a hassle!! Finding a return flight, lodging and food for 6 and extending our car rental. My husband spent Saturday looking for flights. Found one that didn't cost $899/person! 7am Monday morning. I was out of Thyroid medication and the brain fog and total exhaustion set in. We all had our own thoughts on WHY? Why do these things happen? Why did God allow this? What are we supposed to do? How do we pay for this? All Stream boys were scheduled to work so they had to call in. Sarah needed to pick her pup up. We were tired and fried and completely funned out. I pretty much slept and prayed and cried in my no energy state.

Monday morning flight. There was a medical emergency not long after we took off. "If there is a doctor on board please come to the back of the plane immediately!" Several rescuers left their chairs and headed back. Patrick saw an unresponsive person being lifted from their seat to the floor. I immediately went to prayer. Prayed over everyone and everything and cried out to The God who Saves. "We need more oxygen. Please stay in your seats. There will be no drink service." The passengers in the front seats were willing to be seated in the back for the duration of the flight. Attendants running back and forth grabbing medical equipment. I continued to pray as tears rolled down my face imagining what could be happening. I prayed for a miracle. For healing hands. For protection. Comfort. Peace. That the God who created the universe sustain us all. That He work through these heroes. That those who don't know Him would. That my prayers be joined with the prayers of other believers. I must have been praying for at least an hour. The rescuers came down the aisle with all of their equipment. An elderly gentleman and his wife were escorted to the front seats. He was hooked up to several monitors. Then I poured out my heart in praise to The Healer. As we neared Minneapolis, the captain asked for applause for the entire team. I squeezed the man's shoulder as I walked by. He was awake and responsive. "Thank you and God bless you!" I said to the flight attendants. We saw the ambulance waiting at the gate. The EMT's surrounded this dear man as we left.
I felt a deep peace and joy in my soul. I choose to believe that we were on that flight for that reason. That the doctors were on that flight for that reason. That our flight home was cancelled because God's plans are bigger than our puny ones. He is in total and complete control and I had an opportunity to seek Him and find Him with my whole heart. He heard and He answered. He always does!!
All honor and praise and glory to Him!! Thank you Lord!!
The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty One who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you with His love; He will exult over you with loud singing. Zephaniah 3:17

Wednesday, February 02, 2022


This is Haven.  The puppy that came home from deployment with Sarah.  She is such a sweetheart. 
Sorry Lola and Lucy that your home has been invaded and you are traumatized.


This is the moment. The moment that I got to hold my daughter after 10 months and 13 days of not holding her. We sobbed in each others arms and held on so tight. Thank you Lord for GLORYOUS reunions!!

Friday, January 28, 2022

Love Them Both!!

 This precious little girl turns 1 year old today!!  Her mommy was 14 weeks along and messaged me from Kenya.  She had found an illegal abortionist at the same time she found my story of abortion regret.  We talked back and forth. I offered her everything I wanted before my abortion. Help. Hope. Support. She chose life and Jasmine is growing so fast!!

Sunday, January 23, 2022


So grateful to God for the opportunity to tell my story of abortion and forgiveness at Celebration Community Church in Celebration, FL.  My former pastor was instrumental in helping me begin the journey of healing after abortion.  He BOLDLY declared the truth about the intentional killing of innocent human beings made in the image of God via abortion.  He also spoke of God's forgiveness. No one is beyond the saving grace of Jesus Christ.  

Sunday, January 02, 2022


Every Sunday I cross off another week closer to Sarah.  She will be home from deployment in 2022!! 

Sunday, December 19, 2021

That Sarahface!

Telling Sarah a story for each card.  How I want a photo like the Fosterling family. (Spouses, cherubs and grandcherubs)

Thursday, November 25, 2021


We carried on our Thanksgiving tradition of coloring turkeys. Sarah joined on facetime! Thank you Lord for technology!!

Tuesday, November 16, 2021

Hi Nate!!

 Happy 18th Birthday Nathan!!  How can you possibly be 18???

Sunday, October 17, 2021

From Patrick

My wife is turning 56 this week.  We went out to get some "Senior" pictures.

Friday, August 27, 2021


Our 31st year at the fair!! 
Patrick asked me out to the fair for one of our first dates!!


From a friend's fridge.
So many people are praying right now for our Sarah Bearah!

Wednesday, August 25, 2021

SAS at Work

This is my girl.  
Doing what she does.
Loving others.

Saturday, August 21, 2021

How To Comfort

Just sit with me. Hold me tight. Let me cry. Keep your mouth shut.  Listen when I speak.  Really listen. Unsolicited advice is not allowed.  Do not SHOULD ON ME or question my past decisions and past sins. The way I sinned and the ways I was sinned against.  I will interpret my own life. Thank you very much. Do not say HANG IN THERE! Sit with me as I struggle. Sit with me as I suffer. Pray over me. Read His Word to me. Lead me to The One that restores my soul and loves me more than anyone on this earth. My Healer, My Redeemer, My Father!


Tuesday, August 17, 2021


 I joined the Riverfront Athletic Club with my family.  This is my view as I run on the treadmill. So beautiful.

Wednesday, August 11, 2021

This Man

Two weeks before my wedding day my dad called to say, "I can't walk you down the aisle. My wife would never speak to me again if I did." I called Stuart and asked him if he would walk me down the aisle. He replied, "I would be honored." I had been a nanny for Stuart, his wife and daughter(before they had twin boys!) At the age of 23 I saw for the first time in my life a loving father and husband. I got a glimpse of what family really means and a longing grew to have that for myself. Stuart passed away 16 years ago today. I was pregnant with my youngest boy, Tim. We named him Timothy Stuart. He once asked me, "Mom why did you name me after a mouse?" "We didn't buddy. We named you after one of the sweetest men that mommy has ever known." I love you and I miss you, Stuart. I thank God for your impact on my life. 💓

Monday, August 09, 2021

Hi Drew!

 This is Sarah's boyfriend Drew and his dog Tucker.  They met at UMD and now they maintain a long distance relationship while the girlybug is deployed. 

Saturday, August 07, 2021



We facetimed with Sarah on her 21st Birthday! She opened her birthday box of presents from us and celebrated with her battle buddies in Kuwait! We love you SAS!! 
PS The girl loves cows.

Saturday, July 31, 2021

Happy 27th Anniversary to Us!!

I thank God for the years and years of you, Patrick!! I love you so much!! Thank you for surprising me with a trip to Red Wing, MN to stay at the St. James Hotel.  Lovely. 

Friday, July 30, 2021

Love, Patrick

 I spoke to my wife on this glorious morning of our 27th anniversary: "Babe, it's our 27th. I'm excited. I'm just really looking forward to getting away from you. (I was shocked trying to interpret the look of horror and confusion on her face) "Uh, Babe...I mean getting away WITH you. WITH you. I love you so much babe! I wanna be WITH you."

Wednesday, July 28, 2021

Saturday, July 17, 2021

Missing Her

I miss Sarah so much it physically hurts.  My arms ache to hold her and I want to kiss her sweet face off.  And I will. The other day. In 2022. When she gets home!! I have tough days. On one of them I sat in her room, wearing one of her sweatshirts and wrapped up in one of her 17 fuzzy blankets. I let the sobs out and the tears fall.  I allow myself the freedom to feel what I am feeling.  God knows me. God sees me. He catches every tear.  I found this shirt online later in the day and ordered it immediately.  I wore it for at least 9 days straight before washing it. freals.  Wearing it helps and the comments from others who read it have been heart warming.