Confession

I must confess I did not want to be with my kids today. But here I am. I wanted to sleep and eat and go for a walk when I wanted to, not when other schedules PERMITTED me to. I woke up longing for some other life that is not mine. Nathan had a little roomtime, Mommy had a little roomtime to read the Bible and the other 2 cherubs watched a show. What was on the agenda today was WalMart. I simply HAD to go. I can no longer wait until my children are in bed because I tumble in right after them!! So, after much talking and lecturing and praying we ventured out. I did mention that we could go to the toy section AFTER Mommy found everything on her list. We wandered through toys for an eternity. I parked the cart and waited. I kept hearing Joshua scan things and then yell out the prices, "$9.96!! $4.48!! $12.85!!" He was becoming a little disgruntled because he only had 2 crispy dollar bills to spend. He eventually found some trinkets to purchase and I loaded up on candy and hula hoops and made my way to the checkout.
The fact of the matter is...I am a mom. I am a stay at home mom who chooses to nurture her 3 children and look after their well being. I also have my limits though. By 5:30pm my brain is buzzing, I have a dazed and crazed look on my face and there can be no more input. Coincidentally, 5:30 is when my kids get revved up!! "Mom, hey guess what?? Mom, listen to this!! Mom, I have a joke for you!! Mom, look at me!! Mom, are you listening??" I am outnumbered and we have another little bambino on the way??!!
Lord, help me to realize that You are here in the trenches with me. I do not do this alone and what seems impossible for me, is not impossible for You. Amen