I usually gain weight, feel sad and blue despite how wonderful things go, have no desire to do much of anything. I question my behavior and figure I am just lazy or tired or sick.
And then it hits me that I have lost some people in the season of autumn. The man who walked me down the aisle, Stuart died in August, 2005. Aubrey died in September, 1990. Jamie was miscarried in October, 1995 and I lost Lee in November of 2001 and my beloved Grandma Nora passed away in November, 1979.
I am grieving with hope. And I am going to be ok.